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I want hugs. I want

nyyki hugs and

genderjumper hugs and fuck it if I don’t want Ghost hugs, too.

I want to not have to go back to school, and not to be still studying for a final exam for A&P.

I want to dress up fancy to go to brunch with my cousin, Doctor JT, and her kids.

I need to not abandon my studies even if I am feeling a bit frazzled. Even thougm

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I just gave myself a headache by cracking my neck too hard, and then helped moderate a Virtual Accessible Pride event YouTube livestream for the first time. It was A Lot but I am still here. We only had one troll, too, so that part was cool.

The You Are Not So Smart Podcast did an episode a while back about cultures of genius vs cultures of growth that I listened to this week, and it is rearranging some stuff in my head in helpful ways, explaining why people do the frustrating thing where they compete to tear each other down because in a lot of cultures I was raised in, only the Single Most Correct person got any respect. And I was raised to do this, and managed to train myself out of it once I understood how nonsensical it was, but I didn't understand why it was that way or how we got there. So I will be having thinky thoughts.

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1. I want to not have a headache. I need better health.
2. I want AO3 to not be down for maintenance right now. I need entertainment when I have pain and dysfunction.
3. I want to not have to worry about whether I’m communicating clearly enough to overcome other people’s bad—faith takes and will to misunderstand me. I need to not be judged by people whose brains don’t work like mine.
4. I want Mom to stop smoking. I need to worry less about her and it not reassuring at all that she has to be on blood thinners bc she won’t give up nicotine.
5. I want to have a fancy TENS unit that can give my body sensations to a doctor ( @or other third parties) for the purpose of getting them to believe me about medical bullshit. I need people who disregard how much I hurt or how tired I am to have to put up or shut up.

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I can’t get the pictures to load on Imgur, but I do have pics of Bat’s 10’x25’ storage unit, packed chin-high with decaying cardboard boxes and trash bags full of a mish-mash of possessions packed, at the last minute, in no logical order. How did Bat come to be in possession of a full storage unit of DOOM? Some of that is AuDHD executive dysfunction, and some of it is life circumstances being hard for someone with those disabilities to navigate. You may have seen the ADHD aphorism “DOOM” ie. “Don’t Organize, Only Move”? Well, you’ll be seeing it a lot in this post.

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Wow, long post is long.

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Today has been a day of cramps, grocery shopping, more cramps, talking to people on the phone, learning to debone a chicken, and having figured out when to do class work to get ahead of schedule without getting a headache from the overhead fan throwing flickering shadows over everything when the sunshine is coming in the clerestory window.

Let’s hope that works out tomorrow.

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